bit of a poll

I WISH: 
[x] I was THIN 
[x] I had a better body 
[x] I could control myself 
[x] I was under 110lbs 
[x] I could avoid food 
[] I could hide what I am 
[x] I wasn’t fat 
[x] I was pretty 
[] (But at the same time I dont)] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I LOVE: 
[] feeling hungry 
[x] seeing a difference when fasting 
[] shaking 
[] feeling airy 
[x] losing weight 
[] being anorexic/bulimic/ednos 
[x] green tea 
[] diet pills 
[x] being able to turn down food 
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE: 
[] I am shorter than 5’4 
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes 
[] I have many scars 
[x] I wish my hair was a different color 
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color 
[] I have a tattoo 
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance 
[] have/had braces
[] I wear glasses 
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger 
[x] I have more than 2 piercings 
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears 
[x] I have freckles

SEXUALITY: 
[] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex 
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher 
[x] I am a cuddler 
[x] I’ve kissed in the rain 
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger 
[] I have kissed a stranger

BAD TIMES: 
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink 
[] I can’t swallow pills 
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water 
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression 
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset 
[] I take anti-depressants 
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS 
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it 
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose 
[] I’m addicted to self harm 
[x] I’ve attempted suicide 
[x] I’ve woken up crying 
[x] I’ve lost weight 
[x] I’ve gained weight 
[x] My weight holds me back 
[x] Weight consumes me 
[] I’m at my thinnest 
[] I’m at my biggest 
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
[x] My weight affects my mood 
[x] I weigh myself daily 
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
[] I thrive on compliments 
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
[] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
[x] I get depressed after I eat 
[x] I’ve skipped a meal 
[x] I’ve thrown food away 
[x] I’ve spit food out 
[x] I’ve fasted 
[x] I’ve taken diet pills 
[x] I’ve used laxatives 
[x] I’ve purged 
[x] I exercise 
[x] I exercise so I can eat 
[x] I work out secretly 
[x] I work out daily 
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done: 
[] Weed 
[] Cigarettes 
[x] Alcohol

[] Pain killers
[] Sleeping pills 
[] Anti-depressants 
[] Ecstasy 
[] LSD 
[] Mushrooms 
[] Speed 
[] Cocaine 
x[] Other

HABITS: 
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
[x] I look at thinspo 
[x] I collect thinspo 
[x] I count calories 
[x] I’ve had negative intake days 
[x] I avoid food 
[] I hate food 
[] I love food 
[x (until i get thinner)] I want to be this way 
[] I don’t want to be like this 
[x] I wish I could have more control 
[x] Being thin is my top priority 
[] I am in treatment 
[x] I’m doing this for me 
[x] I’m doing this for someone 
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself